Something's gotta give

TRIGGER WARNING- On this episode I share the story of what I consider to be the most traumatic event of my life. I have learned how the event of being abused was affecting my present day actions. Through the deepest form of shadow work I have been abele to address the person that was created out of trauma, with kindness, and teach myself that we no longer need to allow trauma respo

The bond I have with my father is one I hold near and dear to my heart. He has lived so many lives and our relationship has changed with each person he evolves into. The man I met when I was born was the first version of him I knew and it was also the worst version. The addict, liar, and man of magic with his disappearing acts was my first introduction of what a man is- what my fir

Being codependent means having excessive emotional or psychological reliance on a person outside of yourself. Many of us are codependent and don't realize that we are, or maybe we have just accepted that's the way relationship dynamics work. As someone who has always wanted to be break free from relying on others, I had to learn just how deep my codependency went. After embracing m

I grew up in extreme poverty from birth up until the fourth grade. Having a mindset of scarcity and lack was introduced before I knew there were other ways of life. Even learning that there are many other - better- possible ways of life, scarcity still rules over my subconscious. Through the therapy process of EMDR, I am able to face head on the core beliefs that were established i

I never had a good, memorable birthday in my childhood. All of the birthday's in my 20's were only 'fun' because I was under the influence of marijuana and liquor. Celebrating my 29th birthday sober was the first time I realized what pain I experienced year after year as a child and how I subconsciously seek that in my present reality. It took a sober eye to piece all of this toget

I have had three different birth certificates throughout my life and that has seriously impacted my sense of identity. I became every version of what others thought of me until I took the time to find myself.

The number one indicator for how children grow up to thrive is the quality of the mother's happiness. I had numerous women fall into the mother role throughout my adolescent years and each one passed on their traumas. Whether the act was intentional or not, it has affected me profoundly. Doing intense shadow work during my healing stages, I have reflected on my past lives that I ex

Core beliefs are formed before the age of five and if new behavioral patterns aren't introduced by the age of seven, your personality has been created. I learned that my spirit did not identify with the woman that I had evolved into. I took a deep dive inward and realized I was subconsciously recreating the havoc of my childhood. My healing journey has been the hardest yet most rew