As Long As I'm Living

Nov 04 2024 173 ep. 31 mins 3
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We're long-distance friends and bereaved moms who lost sons to SIDS in 2021. Each Monday, we chat life after infant loss. Raw episodes with lots of tears, hopeful episodes on the good days, episodes to help those supporting a griever, and interviews with loss parents and other experts in grief and trauma. :: We started our podcast to document our journeys toward Happier Ever After and hope to provide support and connection for those who have lost a child to SIDS, stillbirth, TFMR, miscarriage, or any other type of baby loss. We’re sorry you need us, but we’re so glad you’re here! Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/aslongasimliving/support

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Where Are We Now? (3 Years of ALAIL)

Nov 04 2024 40 mins  
It's our podcast anniversary! We're celebrating this year by taking a look back (well, listen back!) at old episodes and seeing how our lives have changed. We want to hear from YOU! How has your life changed since you started listening to the podcast? Send us a DM on Instagram, either using text if you want us to read your update, or a voice note if you want us to include your voic

Live with the Sad Dads Club (Insta Live Replay)

Oct 28 2024 52 mins  
About a year ago, Judith and Alina joined Rob and Chris of the Sad Dads Club for a super fun and casual Instagram live! We talked about the legacy of our respective loss work (ALAIL and SDC), how our grief has changed over the years, finding a grief support tribe, and so much more. If you'd rather watch this Instagram live, you can do so HERE! We'll be back with a regular episode n

Abortion Access for All (A Rant Before the US Election)

Oct 21 2024 37 mins  
This week's episode was originally going to be about many things, but once we got started, we realized that there is one topic that we needed to talk about: abortion. We discuss the implications of restrictive abortion laws, the personal nature of abortion decisions, and the importance of voting to influence reproductive rights. We cannot emphasize enough the need for equitable acc

Life Update: Something To Lose

Oct 14 2024 37 mins  
Are we... happy? Welcome to our most recent life update, where we talk about how completely, permanently fucked up we are... and also how much joy we have in our lives in a way we haven't since Aiden and Quinn died. Both/and. ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - ALAIL | Opening a Time Capsule (and the Instagram post where you can see Judith and Aiden at the coffee shop) - AL

The Circle of Loss, an interview about paying grief support forward with Marnina, Michal's Mom

Oct 07 2024 50 mins  
Meet Marnina! Judith and Marnina have known each other for 15 years... but they didn't really know each other until they each lost a baby. Judith lost Aiden first, and when Marnina lost her daughter Michal the next year, Judith became a lifeline for her. This was incredibly meaningful for Judith, who had needed so much care and support from others over the previous year and finally

Already a Mom

Sep 30 2024 33 mins  
In case you missed it, Alina is pregnant! And it's hard. She went on a vacation a few weeks ago and faced her first "pregnancy after loss" gauntlet of questions that were well-meaning but ultimately extremely triggering. Listen to find out how she dealt with it, and to hear what advice Judith has for her and others in similar situations. ::: This episode is sponsored in memory of b

Bumpy Start, an Alive Baby NICU Story

Sep 23 2024 38 mins  
Judith gave birth to her baby boy a few weeks ago, and while the birth was smooth... the subsequent hours and days were not. It was extremely traumatic for both Judith and Alina, who were acutely reminded that babies can and do die. Thankfully, Judith's son got great care and is alive and well, and they are adjusting to life at home as a family of 5ish (2 adults, 1 dead child,

Quinn is 4... and a big brother!

Sep 16 2024 31 mins  
Yes, this is a pregnancy announcement ♥️ ::: Things we talk about in this episode: - ALAIL | Breathing After Loss, an Interview About Parenting After Loss with Zayn's Mom Katie - ALAIL | First Time Moms for the Second Time, More About Parenting After Loss with Zayn's Mom Katie ::: Support As Long As I'm Living podcast at ⁠buymeacoffee.com/alailpodcast⁠ OR buy bu

Shoulders to Cry On, an interview about infant loss support groups with Dr. Denise Mandel

Sep 09 2024 43 mins  
Today on the podcast, we're welcoming back our resident grief therapist: Dr. Denise Mandel! We talk to Dr. Denise allllll about support groups. What are they, how do they help, how can you find one? We also talk about why some people DON'T like support groups, and other ways that you can find support in your loss if the group you tried to join isn't working. Dr. Denise

Live Again from DC (Insta Live Replay)

Sep 02 2024 32 mins  
Hi all! It's a holiday week here in the US, so we're taking the opportunity to release an Instagram live we did back in May to the feed. In this live, we mainly talk about a then-recent episode of the podcast in which we tell the stories of our losses. If you haven't listened to that episode yet, listen HERE and then come back and listen to all the commentary :) If yo